Tag Archives: meditation

Is It Possible to Go From Scared to Total Peace?

So what happened between my last writings and now? Drama, became a “card carrying” lesbian, dated and multiple break-ups with the same person, love, passion, sex,  pain, an “almost spine surgery”, divorce, tears (lots of ’em), redefining my relationship with … Continue reading

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It’s Time For the Truth

2/3/2015 …to live as the true, authentic me. It’s been a few years of discovering what that truly means. It was a lot of hard work, pain, confusion and lots of tears to get to this place of complete peace. … Continue reading

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It’s Not What You Do But Who You Are

6/15/12  Today was a day I will never forget as long as I live. Two life changing events were about to happen. I had my appointment with my healer today and it was huge, life changing to be exact. I … Continue reading

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The Questions Go Round and Round

6/7/12   I’m having a hard time writing my screenplay, “I’m Coming Out. The Truth Hurts”. When it comes time to actually write it down on a piece of paper, I keep doubting whether I’m gay or not. After my visit … Continue reading

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I’m Scared

6/4/12  It was time to say goodbye to my friends in Massachusetts. What a good time, great memories, lots of laughs and even a few tears all mixed together. My friend Fiona dropped me at the airport and as I was … Continue reading

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She Was My Biggest Rejection

5/30/12  My eyes are foggy today. My meditation felt too grounded; I just wanted to fly. I felt stuck and it was a very negative stuck. Something was forcing me down. I can’t keep my mind off Mary. I need it … Continue reading

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It Made Me Wonder

5/29/12  I have to apologize to my readers out there. What follows are three totally separate thoughts about things that happened this day. First, I had the strangest dream and felt the need to write it down. I dreamt that … Continue reading

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I Can See Clearly Now

5/24/12  Today was my first appointment with my healer since breaking down in April and telling her everything going on with me and my sexuality. Today I told her of my car battery dying two different times in the last … Continue reading

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Options. You Have Them.

5/23/12  In today’s meditation I was rushed as I don’t want to miss yoga with my favorite instructor. I had stayed longer than I thought with my chiropractor this morning. I had an adjustment as expected. My mind has been wandering all … Continue reading

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I’m Coming Out. The Truth Hurts.

5/22/12  Today is my first official session with my life coach and I’m scared as can be. Luckily he’s a gentle soul and made me feel completely at ease talking to him about everything. We started with him asking me … Continue reading

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