Category Archives: scared

Anger Scares Me

I recently found my limit of anger and it scared me. My insides turned, my instinct was to remove myself from the situation and get out. It was a Wednesday night and I had just come from volunteering with an … Continue reading

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The Day I Thought My Son Would Be Better Off with His Dad Than with Me

I find it interesting as I come up on my one year anniversary of officially being divorced that I’m remembering so many of the low points of that process which were such great lessons. Today I am remembering the day … Continue reading

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Sometimes Going Back You Realize You Had to Go thru Some Shit to Get to the Good Stuff

I was brought back to a previous post that I did which is still the number one read post of all the ones I have since done here: I’m Scared It’s really wild to see that I wrote these words three … Continue reading

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I Was Afraid of Him

Today I actually wrote those words in my journal and it surprised the heck out of me. I was actually writing about love when I wrote that I was afraid of him. Strange, huh? I’ve had this idea for three … Continue reading

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How Can I Expect Him to Do Now What I Couldn’t Then?

Now onto Part 2 of my craniosacral therapy session. It was even bigger than the first. The HUGE aha came toward the end of our session. I was talking about a situation with my former husband, Mark this week where … Continue reading

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Be Careful What You Put Out Into the World

I had two major life aha’s today during my craniosacral therapy session (CST). My therapist and I were working once again on my problem left shoulder and my neck. We covered a lot of ground but there were two very … Continue reading

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Would You Tell a Person on Death Row They Had Won Willy Wonka’s Golden Ticket?

I have been out and about exploring all kinds of groups that are of interest to me. So when a friend mentioned she was going to a talk on compassion I jumped at the opportunity to hear what someone else … Continue reading

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Is It Possible to Go From Scared to Total Peace?

So what happened between my last writings and now? Drama, became a “card carrying” lesbian, dated and multiple break-ups with the same person, love, passion, sex,  pain, an “almost spine surgery”, divorce, tears (lots of ’em), redefining my relationship with … Continue reading

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