Category Archives: Gay

Anger Scares Me

I recently found my limit of anger and it scared me. My insides turned, my instinct was to remove myself from the situation and get out. It was a Wednesday night and I had just come from volunteering with an … Continue reading

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Do You Ever Kiss Just to Kiss?

I love kissing. I admit it. When I’m dating I like to say hello to my partner with a kiss, say goodbye with a kiss and hopefully there’s some kissing in between. Lots of it, as far as I’m concerned. … Continue reading

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With Practice It Gets Easy to Love Everyone…Even Your Enemies

My former husband, Mark has been great training with this lesson. Ok calling him an enemy is very extreme but it makes for a catchy title. It’s easy to stay in negativity, anger, hatred, etc when you’ve been wounded by … Continue reading

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Am I An Eternal Optimist?

Now that I am in what I now call my “new space”, it’s interesting to note, witness, watch, see people who are still stuck in their old space, patterns, thoughts, ways, etc. I don’t say this to say my way … Continue reading

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Sometimes You Have to Let Go to Allow Something Better In

I am again laying here in bed thinking…this time about this couple who are parents of a boy from my son, Alex’ class. We have known one another for the last 4 years when our boys started preschool together. I … Continue reading

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To My Former Husband, I’m Sorry, Please Forgive Me, Thank You and I Love You

I have done a lot of work on myself especially over the last three years. And so much of that work felt selfish. And in all fairness, I suppose it was. Unfortunately in all this work of my self discovery … Continue reading

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Sometimes Going Back You Realize You Had to Go thru Some Shit to Get to the Good Stuff

I was brought back to a previous post that I did which is still the number one read post of all the ones I have since done here: I’m Scared It’s really wild to see that I wrote these words three … Continue reading

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You Stay Here, I’ll Go On Ahead

I was in a parent group session with a therapist and another woman tonight at a place called Kids In the Middle. It is an amazing organization that helps kids going through divorce. So every Tuesday for the last six … Continue reading

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Have You Ever Cried After Sex?

I have. And they were not tears of joy. They were tears of sadness, loneliness and realizing this was what our relationship had become. I hadn’t thought of this for years but it hit me a few hours after my … Continue reading

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There’s No Fooling on April 1

April 1. A day I will forever remember. Three years ago I watched a movie that turned my life upside down and changed everything for me…and so my emotional journey began. And one year ago today I was at a … Continue reading

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