First, I had the strangest dream and felt the need to write it down. I dreamt that I was back working at my old company and was traveling with the salesman based in California and my friend from high school, Kathi. We were at an expensive hotel and there’s confusion with the staff about someone elses shirts in our room. I slept in the bed with the salesman and Kathi. He asks if I would be with others and I said I wouldn’t be with him sexually, just as we were. It was so strange and yet so real. I’m sure it’s not too difficult to figure out what all of this meant in my real world. Makes you wonder about the dreams we have.
Second, now back to real life. During the meditation today when it was time for the actual meditation, a train came by during 95% of the meditation and it distracted me just a tad. Over the weekend I had watched a documentary where a boy was throwing a fit wanting his Dad to fix his toy train. After awhile of his out of control fit, his Dad realized the train represented his family. The boy was asking his Dad to fix their family. Oh boy did that send me into a whirlwind of guilt with what was going on with me!
Third, a strange thing happened yesterday. A teenage girl had gotten a flat tire and managed to pull her car to the bottom of our driveway. My son and I had been outside playing and realized what happened. So naturally we went over to see if we could help. She was insistent on waiting for her mom to arrive. We kept her company and chatted while we waited for her Mom.
Her Mom showed up and they talked for a bit about what had happened, had some laughs and then the Mom said, “OK now here’s your lesson on changing a tire…” She went on to tell the daughter what to do but did not do it for her. I thought what a smart Mom! The Mom and I chatted about the fact she worked as an export manager. Now that sparked something for me. I had loved my job with my old company in the export department. I loved dealing with the agents all around the world. I loved learning of their cultures. I loved figuring out the logistics of getting the freight from Massachusetts to a foreign country. It brought me back to realize that I sure did love that job.
I then start realizing there was something about this woman. I admire her. I think she’s cute. I wonder if she has other kids. She didn’t have a wedding ring on so I wonder if she’s divorced. I wonder if she likes women. Although I never saw her again, it did make me wonder….