Monthly Archives: October 2012

Time for a Little Diversion

6/1/12  The day for the birthday surprise had finally arrived. I was able to make the flight to Massachusetts work out, I had organized the babysitter for my son Friday and Monday and my husband filled in on the balance … Continue reading

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She Got the Letter

5/30/12  A few days ago I had finally gotten up the nerve to send the letter to Mary. Today we were chatting on Facebook as usual and she tells me about her difficult break up with her boyfriend. It had been … Continue reading

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How Do I DO This?

5/30/12  I had 50 minutes to myself while my son was at swim class. I went to a nearby park and decided to write with my left hand again. This is what I got: How do I DO this? The song drives me crazy … Continue reading

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She Was My Biggest Rejection

5/30/12  My eyes are foggy today. My meditation felt too grounded; I just wanted to fly. I felt stuck and it was a very negative stuck. Something was forcing me down. I can’t keep my mind off Mary. I need it … Continue reading

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It Made Me Wonder

5/29/12  I have to apologize to my readers out there. What follows are three totally separate thoughts about things that happened this day. First, I had the strangest dream and felt the need to write it down. I dreamt that … Continue reading

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Shout It Out – You’re Gay!

5/25/12  I’ve been trying to get clarity. Craving it. My emotions and thoughts are all across the board. Do I really want to give up my whole life for a “what if”? I’ve put so much weight on this thing … Continue reading

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I Can See Clearly Now

5/24/12  Today was my first appointment with my healer since breaking down in April and telling her everything going on with me and my sexuality. Today I told her of my car battery dying two different times in the last … Continue reading

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Options. You Have Them.

5/23/12  In today’s meditation I was rushed as I don’t want to miss yoga with my favorite instructor. I had stayed longer than I thought with my chiropractor this morning. I had an adjustment as expected. My mind has been wandering all … Continue reading

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Being Open – Stream of Consciousness 5/21/12

Oops I just realized I never published this one from 5/21/12. 5/21/12  I did the meditation in the afternoon so I was a bit tired. But it was good since my mind was relaxed and I wasn’t trying to control … Continue reading

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I’m Coming Out. The Truth Hurts.

5/22/12  Today is my first official session with my life coach and I’m scared as can be. Luckily he’s a gentle soul and made me feel completely at ease talking to him about everything. We started with him asking me … Continue reading

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